RUT

If you haven't noticed, I am in a rut. Truth be told, I have been in a rut for a while. You only have to look at my house to confirm this for truth. Everything is in disarray, I have piles of "to do later" stuff and everything is put off until tomorrow. Or the next day. Or next month. (I did finally get the Christmas crap put away, and I would like it noted that it happened before February 1st. Go me.)

I think it is a combination of exhaustion, monotony, and laziness that has put me in this rut. Which has contributed by my writer's block and lack of posting on a regular basis. That and there is always something else that needs to be done. Even if that something else is playing around on Pinterest (which I have newly discovered can be as much of a time sucker as facebook) or catching up on my DVR'd shows (they really start piling up, so then I have to have a Mentalist or Criminal Minds marathon to catch up and stay up way too late which adds to the exhaustion the next day. Vicious cycle. I am not sure how I ever watched TV without DVR. I love fast-forwarding through all the commercials, as they are such a waste of time. The commercials, not the shows...Okay, maybe the shows are a waste of time too. I digress). Bottom line is I have a problem with time management...

I had set aside January for my Get Organized month, but sadly January came and went without much organizing. I am not holding my breath for this month since it too is almost over, but have set "tentative" goals and deadlines to help me get more organized and caught up. I am very organized with my to do list making/goal setting. Sadly, in reality, all they do is make me feel like a failure when I don't meet them. I can't believe how fast this year is already flying by, as it is almost March. (Side note: there are only 309 shopping days until Christmas.) Sigh. Maybe next month...

On a positive note, I have been going to the gym. You know, to try and get out of the 'fat girl' rut. I am not sure if so far it has been worth it as I haven't really noticed a difference (and it has been 7 weeks damn it, by now I should have lost at least 30 pounds. Geeeeesh). I think I may feel a little better, although more tired. And sore. I know it hasn't helped with the constant irritability that my children would tell you that I have, but I am holding out hope that eventually it will click and I will be skinny and patient all at once. Cause that is how it happens right? RIGHT???!!

In the meantime I think I may take up drinking more. Sure it will add more calories that I have to work harder to get off, and it will add to my lazy TV watching, but I won't really care or feel guilty about it. Until the next morning. But I don't have to worry about that until tomorrow. And everything is put off until tomorrow. So tonight...cheers!!! Where's my beer?

My Littlest Teacher

Aubrey "reading" to her imaginary students.

She spends hours in her room playing school and teaching her students, and her favorite thing to do is read to them. She is quite the teacher. I am always amazed at how many of her students need to be repremanded. I hear a lot of myself in her scolding, which kind of makes me sad. I have never been allowed to join her class, but snuck this picture one day. What a cutie.